Spring Break

So I planned on writing this awesome post about how awesome Spring Break has been, how I went to the beach yesterday and got a little sunburned and had milkshakes and went running and went to Sonic and how I feel like I'm in a good place. But I'm not going to write about any of that.

Because today, five minutes into a run, I felt the familiar crack and the heat rushing through my ankle. I had sprained my ankle. Again. Ouch.

This has happened too many times to me. More times than I can count. Sometimes, I just roll on it, it gets a little swollen, and the next day it's fine. But on a day like today, when I can feel that pop and the rush of warmth, I know it's staying. And as I tried to hold in the tears as I hobbled home, when I opened my back door and saw my dog, who looked so eager, the tears just came rushing out. I sobbed and sobbed, so mad and upset that this had happened. Again. A million thoughts ran through my mind. "Why didn't I go to hot yoga instead? Why didn't I pay more attention when I was running? Why does this always happen to me? Why now? Why why why?" Asking God why this happened, if I was doing the right thing. I know it seems dramatic and silly, but I was running for a reason.


I was running to get healthier, to lose weight, and to feel happier with myself. I wasn't happy with what I saw when I looked in the mirror this week. Shorts that fit me last summer don't fit me now. I need to make a change, and I'm committed to it. I thought running would get me there. But with my weak ankles, I'm not in good enough shape to be running. I need to find something else. Hot yoga, swimming, the elliptical, there are so many things I can do, and I need to remember that.


It's easy to feel like my weight loss journey has been halted. But I will keep pushing through. I think that this has given me more determination. I am going to get healthier and keep going. Yes, I will falter, and yes I will lose motivation. But at the end of the day, I will be strong, and that's what I will take pride in.

"The Lord is my strength and my song, and he has become my salvation."

Exodus 15:2

xoxo

The Last Day of the Year

It's hard to believe that 2011 is over. So many things happened this year. I went on an amazing trip to New Orleans, I became a legal adult, I was accepted to college, I decided to attend a school that is almost perfect for me, I went on a trip to Eastern Europe that changed my life, I graduated high school, I spent a great two weeks in Ireland, and I started college. I made more friends than I thought possible, I finished my first semester with great grades, and most importantly, I accepted Jesus Christ into my life. Because of that decision, everything about college has been different. I have become friends with so many different types of people, and many of my closest friends at school know Jesus. I am so, so glad that I went on the Fall Retreat, where I personally accepted Jesus. How different things would be now if that hadn't happened.

I am looking forward to 2012. In one respect, it is kind of sad because now I will have to say "Oh, I graduated last year." But this is a small price to pay in the trade for a new year with a new start. I can't wait to see what God has in store for me this year!